20 weeks and 5 days today. We are halfway there. July 24th- Here we come!
To recap the last 4 months since that test showed the
infamous “+” sign would be quite the task. Here are some highlights, and a few
things I never knew about pregnancy:
- I knew I was pregnant when I suddenly had to sit down in the middle of blow-drying my hair to catch my breath.
- Telling your family you are expecting is one of the best feelings in the world, especially at Christmas time. My favorite is when people scream like they have seen a giant spider or throw items across the room.
- Morning Sickness should be called all-day sickness. That lasted until about mid-January.
- Maternity pants should be mandatory every day wear for all humans. Whoever invented buttons and zippers is an idiot.
- Queen size beds are not made for a pregnant woman and her poor husband, who is constantly pushed, kicked, and woken up by a woman’s need to use the bathroom at 3am.
- A growing belly can be beautiful when a baby is in there.
- My husband is one of the most giving, compassionate people on the planet. He is going to be an amazing dad.
- I felt the first popcorn motions of a baby moving about two weeks ago. And I sat on the bathroom floor and cried as my iPod played “How Great Thou Art.”
Today is the last day I will fall asleep without knowing. And I don’t want it to be over. Sure, I am rejoicing in the thrill of knowing and starting a baby registry and thinking in pink or blue. But I realize how quickly time is passing and how much I love being pregnant. They are subtle motions right now, but I love the flutters and kicks I feel as I meet with students at school. It is all I can do to keep from squealing in the middle of an emotional teenage breakdown. I love how my husband and I are growing closer each day, even through the occasional mood swings and sudden needs for pizza rolls or ice cream sundaes.
I am certain that with each stage of motherhood there will
be new joys and new trials. But for right now, I want to embrace today and
these moments and try to etch them in my mind forever.
Oh little one, I can’t wait to know who you are, who God is
knitting you together to be.
"For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
If I would count them, they are more than the sand."
Psalm 139: 13-18
